March 29, 2008

This day, that year....

It was about this time two years ago that I befriended a person whom I knew would dissolve into time. Crooked sense of humour, photogenic eyes and an infectious laughter. Perfect. But well, guess what...didn't last. And being me, I let it sink into oblivion. Until yesterday when an upheaval in the mildest of senses resurfaced a few patches of 'this day-that year'.

The song of waves, crashing against rocks, echo in my ears from hundreds of miles away. I'd like to believe that the nostalgia ends here.


March 22, 2008

It has been over one and a half years and its still brand new.

...

I carry your heart with me
(I carry it in my heart)
I am never without it
(anywhere i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate
(for you are my fate,my sweet)
i want no world
(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

-E.E.Cummings

March 13, 2008

Gloomydum


Overcast sky.

It's cold inside.

Drake whispers in my ears.

Suicide is painless.

January 8, 2008

White




A 7 storeyed glass building with stone cladding here and there, a vain attempt to make it look aesthetically pleasant. Sorry state of 'landscape' around it. Smoking area near the fountain where the Sun makes it difficult to even walk through to stub your ciggie. Orientation was definitely looked after. "Face the main road. Let the Solar factor go to hell. The client will bear the AC load. What's there!" This seemed to be the mantra while designing this, and to that matter all the buildings these days. My office, on the fourth floor overlooks the grand bare Aravali range and another mishap of a building. Oh! and I overlooked another teeny detail, this is the firm that designed this building as well as the other monstrosity I see from my window. And I wouldn't even bother about the interiors of this skull, there's nothing to talk about. It's well...nothing except monochrome. White walls, white ceiling, white window rollers, white sheets, ash stained furniture, dull green chairs, dull green-white-carpet, white and green files, white displays.....possessed by white. The tiny splashes of colour that tried to make there way inside were strangled and thrown on the dead floor of the corridor outside. They were probably wiped out by the guy whose only ambition is to walk to and fro in the corridor with a floor mop. Even on a working saturday, when only our office is devoted enough to come and pretend to work, and the footfall in the corridor goes to around one an hour, he goes around with the same devotion. He's my inspiration to drag on. One fine day, I'll see his face underneath his weary cap and ask him about the secret of life...but till that day, I come and I go. And the white clocks on the white wall tick away the times of people's lives in New York, London and New Delhi.

December 3, 2007

He looked up and asked me if I ever had a lover I did not betray,
I turned on the radio and looked the other way.

Burn in hell, please.

As you leave, without a soul by your side,  I hope you finally saw the dark side of your deeds. The curses that turned to flame will continu...