You know it's over....

.....when you pick up the phone at 2 am and dial your lifeline to sanity...but hang up before it rings.

9

.

In 9 years....
9 days.
9 days, again.

What I know is that I can trust his eyes because what lives in them, lives in me.

New Day

'Twas about all that jazz & more
Dilemmas & dire straits
Trippin' the light fantastic toe
In cacophony of the invisible
Jived all night
All nights.

As the trumpet flower blooms
Night changes to noon
Troupe recedes
Ocean fades
Snow dries up
Tonight, I dance alone.

The Week After....

You wake up with a strange taste in your mouth
Empty bottles outside with rested tempest inside

You've been transported somehow

Spilled ash marks your track
You get up with a busy head, trying to make sense
Silence follows...then a smile...then silence.

The next day you wash it off
You go out to get fresh air into your lungs
To get fresh sights into your head
You bump into smiles and confusion, again.

For days, rain follows you wherever you go
And so does a confused smile.
You love rain
And you cherish the smile.

It comes and goes
As and when it pleases itself
Slowly dissolving into time

Aren't you glad you have a bad memory?
Aren't you glad you'll soon be forgetting everything?
Aren't you glad your conscience is clear?

Then, how come you're not smiling anymore?

...and if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you.

You know you're blessed...

....when you pick up the phone at 2 o'clock at night and your lifeline to sanity is still available.

The night I shut my window to Moonlight

Do the 'right' thing
For the 'right' reason
At the 'right' time

Turn off the moon
Shut down the stars
Stand on the Sun
Feel the darkness within

Do the 'right' thing
For the 'right' reason
At the 'right' time

Draw curtains to the window of dreams
Don't let 'em seep in
Don't breathe life
It's futile

Do the 'right' thing
For the 'right' reason
At the 'right' time

Learn, forget
Love, hate
Find, lose
Smile, cry

Do the 'right' thing
For the 'right' reason
At the 'right' time

Outside,
Dawn was cracking through the long night
Birds chirped amongst autumn leaves
Inside,
The night set in
Forever

...

Did the 'wrong' thing
For the 'wrong' reason
At the 'wrong' time

Believed in history
Believed in the power of music
Believed in the rhythm of heartbeats
Believed in the song.
Believed in destiny

Did the 'wrong' thing
For the 'wrong' reason
At the 'wrong' time

Believed in the mysterious ways of life
Believed in my heart
Believed in love.

You live only once
You love only once

You can't kill me. Anymore.